If I had a nickle for every time I pulled this number. I can’t think about all the times I have acted quickly without thinking everything through. The end result of my impulsive actions may not have always been picture perfect; but I am still in one piece. For some odd reason, things generally work themselves out. Every time. Maybe my subconscious and impulsive parts of my mind made a deal to work together to guarantee favorable results one day. (I can’t help but think of that upcoming Pixar movie now.) Whatever little guy that runs impulse control in my mind has a seriously happy trigger finger and doesn’t hesitate to push that ‘go for it’ button.
All that aside, whenever I do make these super impulsive (sometimes massive) decisions, I have what I like to refer to as the ‘morning after effect’. This is when you realize you should have put a little more thought into your actions before pulling the above mentioned trigger. If you’ve ever made a hasty decision in your life, then I am sure you’ve experienced this feeling as well. The ‘morning after effect’ is when you can’t think about anything but what you said or did the day before. You analyze every move you made, every word you said, and anything that happened with those involved. The later part being the worst. Many times I find myself dissecting every single detailed part of their reaction to my trigger pulling. It could be their words, their tone, their body language towards me, hell even their amount of eye contact with me. It’s the worst.
Then you have the dreaded butterfly effect. For those of you who aren’t familiar with the term, here’s what it is:
The theory that any change could altar other life events. I know, I know, I have a tendency to over analyze things to the fullest degree. However, the fact that a theory called the butterfly exists means I am not the only one who is thinking like this. It can’t be that crazy if there are bunch of people who so the same over analytical stuffs. Right?
Heaven help this always impulsive, spontaneous, trigger happy woman! (aka crazy)