When I look back at my life over the past few years, I have a lot of regrets. Sure. There were really amazing things that happened to me and for me. I got to go places I never would have thought to go, and met people I never thought I’d be so lucky to meet. Looking back, I took some of those blessings for granted. Although I felt like I may have been right at the time, there were many times I should have backed down. So many fights that didn’t need to happen. So many wrongs I wish I could go back and make right.
I’ve held on to feelings from the past for too long. It’s like being in love with a memory… and it is a horrible feeling. Over the past week I looked hard at myself and realized my part in things. It wasn’t a good look. The only thing I can do now is to move forward and remember how I feel now. They say knowing is half the battle, so I feel better prepared to make better decisions in the future.