For some, the holidays can be a difficult time of year. In the past I’ve been the type to decorate too early, set my car radio to Christmas music, and overall be too damn cheerful to stand. The cold weather makes cuddling not only more acceptable, but encouraged! Plus… I look forward to any time I get to to spoil my loved ones with thoughtful gifts and too much attention. Like I said, I’m normally overly cheerful this time of year.
That being said, this holiday season has arrived with an unusual amount of stress and heartache for me this year. The past few months have been some of the most difficult I’ve ever experienced. I cannot count the nights I spent worrying or worse, crying over things that were completely out of my control. I thought this Christmas may very well be the first I wouldn’t enjoy. That thought alone saddened me more than I could ever fully explain.
Then, out of no where, the strangest thing happened. Every day that passed, I noticed I was smiling. I hadn’t genuinely smiled in so long people I worked with started to comment about it. The past two days… I’ve been walking around singing Christmas songs without any music playing. **my apologies to those who’ve had to endure my awful attempts at singing. Never said I was any good. 😉 **
It looks like even with the recent events I hoped to never have to go through, and against all odds, I’m happy. I learned a lot about myself and the people I’m lucky enough to call my friends. (it’s an elite group) In case you’re curious, I’m beginning to believe some of my friends are actually angels sent from God himself.
I wanted to wish everyone a wonderful holiday season this year, and I apologize again if you have to endure my awful singing when I’m out and about. 🎶